Alexandria (Alex) Carmichael guards two secrets close to her heart. One―she’s in love with her best friend, Seth. Two―he’s gay.
As a freshman in college, Alex looks forward to fun times with her best friend. When Seth decides cycling through girlfriends is the way to fit in with the straight crowd, Alex must make a choice: watch Seth give his affection to another while her heart breaks or come clean with her feelings and risk losing his friendship forever.
I LOVED YOU FIRST is a new adult love story told through the eyes of Alex, an African-American/Caucasian student, who takes a journey of self-discovery while watching her best friend come to terms with his sexuality.
When I first saw the premise behind I Loved You First, I immediately was intrigued. A story about a girl in love with someone who could never love her back in the same way, an almost forbidden love? I needed to know more!
What I didn’t expect was how the story felt like more than just a heartbreaking ‘love’ story, but instead a coming of age story about a girl, Alex, who was afraid to come out of her shell, meet new people, and separate from what was comfortable and easy with her best friend, Seth. Alex starts to get a little sick and tired of hanging back and watching Seth pretend to care for other girls in an effort to stay in the closet. Slowly she makes steps to become her own person. She makes mistakes as she goes, but they are such learning experiences for her. A new friend she meets along the way is a spitfire girl named Trinity. OMG I loved her! She had some serious balls and boy did she crack me up! She wasn’t prevalent in the novel until the end but I almost wish there could have been more of her!
On the side of the relationship with Seth, I must admit that I wish we were able to see a little bit more of the relationship, more interaction before things changed between them. I felt like we had Alex telling us more about how close they were instead of us actually seeing it ourselves. I wanted to FEEL the connection of their bond. I think the impact on the story would have been much greater. But I did feel horrible for the situation Alex had gotten herself into and there was one powerful moment between them that made me ache and perhaps get a tad misty.
I Loved You First is so much more than a girl trying to come to terms with her best friend’s homosexuality. It is about a girl gaining her independence and stepping out of the shadows. If you like coming of age stories, than this is definitely a book for you!
3 out of 5!